Written: 5/16/12
I’m finally at my last stop before boot camp. They put me at
Jackson prison intil May 30th, then I go to St. Croix for 6 months.
I’m staying focused and it feels good. Believe it or not, I’m excited to get
some real structure in my life! My way of life obviously did not work! So I’m
ready to try a new way. Any way but the old way.
Change is hard. Hell, even leaving my last joint was hard.
There’s guys in there that I called brothers… some of them won’t see the
streets for 10-20 years. Not only are you saying good-bye but there may be that
chance of never seeing them again. Parole agents and the DOC are not big on
letting ex-cons visit inmates. The words good-bye really hit home.
The good thing about Good-byes are they led to hello’s! The
excitement I feel when I think of going home makes my stomach flip-flop.
I’ve had the hardest time finishing this post. I suppose it’s
because this may be the last real post that I do for a while. During the next 6
months I am going to do nothing but focus on me. I guess what I am trying to
say is good-bye for now. These past two years have been the hardest of my life
but at the same time they have been some of the most rewarding moments that I’ve
ever been through. I lost myself a long time ago and through this entire
situation I have grown and healed along the way. I completely understand why I
had to go down this road and I’m perfectly at peace with everything.
My path through this road we call life is just beginning and
I’m ready for the 1st steps.
I will write at least once a month to log my progress.
Hopefully I can write more but really I don’t know.
Thanks to everyone who has reached out or kept me in their
prayers. It means the world. I’ll talk and see you all by the 1st of
the year.
This is not good-bye, this is only the start.
Always,
Douglas
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